Happiness
That night
I went online once again
to look for the signs of your existence
I’m always doing it
when I’m alone
but that night I went online
To find peace
because I was hurt for too long
I tried to find a sign of your love
I understood that medacium
was a knife
that I’ve made
just to make scars
that will be as deep as mine were
I tried to make you a villain
by saying all those things
When I saw your life
and new me
I understood something
that life is like a river
never holding you in one point
it is pushing you forward
because everything needs to move
you went with the flow
you moved on
I decided to stay in this pain
with the knives in my chest
that I have put there myself
I was hurt
you need to acknowledge that.
you need to know that.
you were the first person
that I have given my emotions to
told my deepest darkest secrets
I loved you with my whole body
every part of my body was made to love you
I thought that I was made to love you
only you,
that you were only mine
When I saw the new me
I felt happiness
happiness for you
that you moved on
I’m so happy for you
I’m so happy that you moved on
you don’t even know
how happy I am that
new me is better than I am
I hope that he will make you smile
like I used to
will make you laugh
like I used to
will give you
love
empathy
happiness
forgiveness
understanding
…
I hope he will be better me
I still didn’t meet the new you
and I’m okay with that
I knew you wouldn’t be able to
give me those things
that I had needed
you weren’t capable of them
and that is okay.
I understand why you didn’t stay
I really do
I don’t blame you anymore
I don’t feel anger anymore
I don’t wish bad upon you anymore
I wish you all the best
he will be able to give you that
what I couldn’t
and that’s the most beautiful thing in the endings
that there is always a new beginning on the horizon
I hope he will be better me
and my future will be better you.
inspired by Taylor Swift "Happiness"
Wooooow *.*
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